Up all night

Writing this with such a heavy heart. A lot of times I get caught up in all of our happies and forget so many that only live in the sad. Every day there are a large amount of people who feel the need to steal from, yell at, cut down someone else because they can't find the vice to fill a void in them. So they steal more, yell more, drink more. 

I'm not sure why but I can't sleep. This hasn't happened to me in a while, seeing as I have an almost 8 month old who refuses to be put on a sleep schedule. So usually I'm exhausted by the time I get into bed. But not tonight. I'm just plain bogged down. I found myself praying over Emma as she lies next to me. I prayed she finds her worth in Christ. That He will consume her goals and character. That she will aim to be a woman of biblical stature and find joy that only Christ can bring. And all of this from an early age, too. I don't want her to ever feel the need to be of the world.

The world is dark, it's mean, it's ruthless, and corrupt. I believe God "allows" this to bring us back to Him, to show us that our life/lives are bound for pain and destruction without Him. He is not a set of rules, but instead, a freedom. And our choices are not made without consequence. This is because of our sin. And that is in the bible. It's not that bad things don't happen to Christians, because they do. But honest/true Christians find their hope in eternity knowing that Jesus paid his life for us. It's the faith in His faithfulness that He has a plan and will (not just can) get us through.

I've found myself struggling with attitude again, and that bugs me. And I know it's because I get too much slack in my time in the word. My attitude is the first thing to be affected when I'm not disciplined and it's been getting me good lately. I don't want to be upset/mad/angry with people, mainly because it's not productive in my walk with Jesus. I'm not higher than anyone else. 

Emma's favorite cartoon right now is Henry Hugglemonster. We watch A LOT of it around hers. Anyways, they go camping, yada yada yada... Turns out Henry's friend is afraid of the dark, so Henry tells him, if you can find just a little light, then the dark isn't so scary anymore. Truer words have never been spoken my friend. Darkness swallows up a lot. It overtakes confidence and hope, Nd replaces it with fear and solitude. But the bible says that to God, even the darkness is not dark to Him. He is able to be light at all times. Wherever you are, He is there with light, bringing hope, confidence, and faith along with him.

I guess my point to this post is: don't let the darkness of the world swallow you up. Sure the world comes with "fun" but it leaves you with regret and shame. Psalm 34:5 says "those who look to HIM are radiant, their faces are never covered with shame." Another reference to light in company with God. Coincidence? Not hardly.