you know that weird feeling you get in your heart and belly when you just know God is going to use you in something? if you have never had that feeling, oh man you're missing out on some serious sweetness.
i love surprises. i probably like the surprise more than the actual surprise itself. just that feeling of not knowing but it being so exciting is so fun to me! and i think that's why i get so anxious about God being at work in my life lately. it's just a sweet season, the lead up. the seeking him, the re-evaluation, the focus on what lies ahead because you know whatever it is, it's going to be good. it's so refreshing in my walk with jesus when i come across things that make my heart beat faster and tears well up in my eyes. but it's also strange to be in the space where you aren't quite sure why those things make you feel that way, or how you can used in that area. but then i'm reminded i'm not called to know, because He is all-knowing. i'm called to say yes. in the simple and in the wild, i will say yes.
this 40 days with jesus has been wrecking me in all the good ways. i've seen things in myself, especially in the way i see/spend money, that are making make really great changes. i read a quite from david platt (i think? correct me if i'm wrong) where he said "i know i'll never stand before the lord and hear him say 'i wish you'd have kept more for yourself'" and that has really resonated with me. i will always love a new dress, a fresh haircut, a mani/pedi. but my love for God and people and how i serve both of those should trump any feeling of any purchase. God is a God of romance, and i sure do love that.
"he who loves money will not be satisfied with money, nor he who loves abundance with its income" -ecclesiastes 5:10
"for the mind set on the flesh is death, but the mind set on the spirit is life and peace" -romans 8:6
it's a beautiful saturday over here and our weekend is full of birthday parties! hope everyone's weekend is great!